Wednesday, June 27, 2007
Words escape a blank mind.
And yet right now, for all intents and purposes, I am content, happy even. But wistful. Very wistful.
I sit and stare off into a distance not quite seeing the ceiling or the walls, waiting and searching for something I cannot grasp.
and time ticks on...
Monday, June 25, 2007
Friday, June 15, 2007
..and I like it :p
Shopping while therapeutic losses its luster very rapidly once a purchase has been made. But a physical change lasts a little bit longer. Even after you’ve become used to looking at the new you in the mirror, people you meet days, weeks or even months later will react quite dramatically to the change in your appearance. And each time that happens it’s a good feeling all over again.
Of course I realize changing one’s outward appearance in order to relieve or remedy an internal struggle is, for want of a better word, daft. And even though I know better I can’t deny that I have succeeded in distracting myself and alleviating my worries for a little while. In the best case scenario, maybe a prolonged sense of wellness brought on by the change could help me climb out of the dumps and get out of the rut of obsessive fatalistic thinking. I’m not expecting that to happen, but I’m open to the possibility.
I need to be reminded constantly that it’s not doom and gloom all the time, because on my good days it’s clear that my problems are minor and my dissatisfaction, negligible. But on my bad days, minor hurts take on colossal proportions despite efforts to remain in a neutral state of mind. I am very tired of it; I want the floodgates to shut and the dam to dry up.
Can you believe I was just talking about my new hair cut? :)
Wednesday, June 06, 2007
Friday, June 01, 2007
I fed it and yet the rumbling giant within grumbles and growls, hardly appeased.
Fortunately there's no one around for it to frighten and unfortunately throwing measly raisins down the feeding chute would only infuriate it more.
Maybe Famous Amos would do the trick. It likes chocolates and sugar, it sure does.
Psst! Can you tell? The weekend hads begun :)
All is peaceful in the office. All the bosses are not in. All the colleagues are relaxed, a lazy Friday indeed.
I’ve been listening to music and doing some miscellaneous documentation.
After all this time, Eva Cassidy’s delicate crooning still manages to soothe the soul.
I had yet another delicious duck rice lunch at
In other news, it’s June!
How time flies, but I hope, not in vain.